The Mills

Monday, February 10, 2014

Box...

Today Jeff's box came in the mail.. With his pants and shirt and shoes and stuff he was wearing the night he got to boot.. It also had his phone and backpack and the notecards he had made to study all of his navy stuff... I don't know why it made me so sad to get it! I mean it's just material items.. But it made me miss him! Not being able to talk to him at all and getting a box full of the stuff he last used and wore just made me sad! If only it would have had a letter in it :( but I know they don't give them that kind of time or anything like that to write a letter the first night or week... Heck the things I read online were true.. His pants were still cuffed from getting boot measurements!! It really did look like he packed up his stuff rushed ha ha there was change and notecards scattered all over the place in that box! Ha ha Lily is going crazy over his clothes she knows it's his stuff and she really misses him!!

The cuffed pants with his belt still in the loops.. He must have been in a hurry ;)

Staying busy

Little Ryker keeps me pretty occupied these days! He seems to be handling things well so far with Jeff being gone! There's lots of family to keep his mind off things! Yesterday we went to our new ward and he just loved the little nursery he is in! And not to mention we are enjoying the warmer weather! It's supposed to be almost 80 this weekend!!

Playing IN his toy box

Always wearing daddy's hat

Playing at the park by the house!

Happy boy

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Day 1-2

Sunday morning when we woke up in our hotel room in cedar I could not stop crying.. I realized this was my last full day with my husband and that in 24 hours he would be on a plane back to Salt Lake and then on to Chicago. When we finally made it to Vegas and unpacked and put stuff in storage I could not stop crying because I felt like our life together was temporarily over. Ryker and I would be here in Vegas and Jeff would not be coming home every night to be with us. I have the hardest time when I start to think about Ryker, and how guilty I feel that all of a sudden his dad is gone and he doesn't understand why and I can't really explain it to him to the point where he understands. Luckily before Jeff left he made ryker a book of pictures of the two of them, and he also bought those recordable books and recorded his voice so he can "read" to Ryker everynight. I feel so bad because Ryker had no Idea what was coming and I had no way to prepare him, and it just breaks my heart because he is Jeff's number one fan, such a daddy's boy. When it was time for bed I kept telling Jeff that I didn't want to go to sleep because when I did I would wake up to him leaving us for 7 months!

He had to be up by 5:30 the Monday morning to make his flight back to Salt Lake. Hugging and kissing him for the last time was the hardest thing I ever had to do, I didn't ever want to let go! I stayed pretty busy that day organizing all my stuff and getting all settled in, I was lucky enough to be able to text and talk to him the whole day, which made the day much easier, but I knew that after Tuesday this wasn't going to be an option anymore for the next 2 months and that's when things were going to get hard. Tuesday morning I was lucky enough to have Brian FaceTime me while they were all at Jeff's swearing in. I felt like I was there and got to watch my husband in action which made me so proud. I would have done anything to have been there in person, but Jeff didn't want to have Ryker make 3 trips back and forth from Vegas. He really did insist on us not driving back to Salt Lake Monday and back to Vegas Tuesday.. Which turned out to be a good thing since it snowed those days. Jeff was able to call and text me while he was at the airport for a few hours, and he sent me a text or two when he landed and told me he would call me when he made it to RTC. 3 hours later I finally got my 2 second phone call from him, he said he was doing okay and things were good.. And that he would be mailing his box with all of his civilian belongings to me... He told me he loved me and that he thinks he can call me in a few weeks ( therefore my phone will be glued to my side so I don't miss his call.. Just like it was all today!!) I asked him if he would get to go to bed soon because I knew he was so tired, but he said they don't get to sleep the first night, he was going to be up for 24 hours... Which led to me googling why they are up for the first 24 hours.. Which led to me reading the things that go on the first few days.. Which makes me so proud of him. I can't imagine what he is going through and I can't imagine the things that he might be feeling... But I know he will do great! I'm looking forward to getting my first letter and we have been brainstorming fun ideas of treats to mail to him! I don't know how I'll be feeling the next few days.. Adjusting to not having any more contact with him at all..And wondering how everything is going for him and what he is doing! Luckily Ryker and I have a fun trip planned to San Diego and Disneyland in 2 weeks..that gives us something to look forward to.. And then of coarse our big trip at the beginning of April to see Jeff graduate bootcamp!! The only downfall.. We only get like 2-3 days with him and then we have to say good-bye again.. But at least at that point he will have his phone back! Yay!! Well, I will try to keep our blog posted with what's going on with Jeff because that's what he wanted for his family and friends!!! I'll update as soon as I hear from him!

Face timing his swearing in... So proud of him!

Friday, January 17, 2014

Our BIGGEST Surprise in 2013!

We have SO many changes coming to our family with Jeff going into the Navy.. Ryk and I moving to Vegas while he is going through all of his training.. And to top it off we were VERY surprised to find out we have another sweet spirit joining our family July 2014! It was very unexpected but we couldn't be more excited!! So far this pregnancy has almost been identical to my pregnancy with Ryker.. Except this time I had morning sickness before I even found out I was!! Still wishing for it to end ANY day now!! I Crave salads and Mexican food all the time.. Especially those chicken soft tacos from Del Taco! Yikes! I've been trying to stay more active during this pregnancy which I didn't with Ryk at ALL and I regretted it!! I still go to my Zumba classes which I love and still try to make it to the gym throughout the week! We went to our first appointment December 17th and saw our little peanuts heart beating and it's little stubby arms and legs!! We both fell in love all over again immediately! We have been teaching Ryker "where the baby is" and he will pat my belly softly!! I know he really has NO idea what's coming! Ha ha!! And when we took a trip to Vegas my sweet friend Amy Bonzo Photography took a few fun pictures for us to announce our big surprise!! A lot of people are curious to know about the delivery while Jeff is in training.. And we still don't know if he will be able to come to Vegas when I deliver! I know at that point he will for sure be able to Skype or face time the delivery.. But we haven't heard a clear answer on whether he will be able to come down or not! I can't imagine him not being there for it.. But I have no control over the situation and I will just have to deal with it when the time comes! Luckily I have already found and made an appointment with a new Dr in Vegas in a month.. I'm so sad to leave the dr and hospital here in Utah that I am so comfortable with but I have heard great recommendations about my new dr! I can't even believe we are moving in 2 weeks and we are losing Jeff for awhile.. It still doesn't feel real yet.. And I can't even imagine what emotional state I'll be in in a few weeks!!

I think I took 5 tests because we just couldn't believe it!

5 weeks!

What ryker gave my mom to break the news :)

What baby wants baby gets.. Both of my cravings satisfied in one dish ;)

Ryker wanted his picture taken like me ha!! Love him so much! We can't wait for him to be a BiG brother!

Friday, January 10, 2014

Ryker's 2nd Christmas

We had a blast this Christmas season! Knowing this was our last Christmas in utah we made sure to make a trip to see the temple lights as well as the zoo lights!!

Ryker enjoyed opening presents for Christmas and loved his toy story toys!!

So excited about these!

We also took him to see his first movie despicable me 2 at the dollar theatre.. He didn't move an inch!

He new exactly what to do with the popcorn Jeff got us all to share

He loves the snow.. I think he will miss it when we move in 3 weeks

My little cupcake stealer

We also took a trip to the airforce museum

Cousins!

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Note to self...

So I did not realize my pictures on my blog were the same album on my google plus profile.. Which I deleted those pictures on my google plus.. Which then deleted ALL my pictures on my blog and apparently there's no getting them back :( it's a sad sad day!